As I have been doing a lot of introspection, I have been coming to terms with a lot of the emotions that I am currently feeling right now. One of the biggest ones is fear.

I’m afraid that I won’t be able to find another job, and definitely afraid that I will never find a job I love as much as my last one.

I’m afraid that if something happens to my family I will become homeless again, but this time completely without resources.

I’m afraid to trust people after having people that I trusted, respected, and cared about turn on me so completely.

I’m afraid to trust my own instincts and intuition because I got it so wrong.

I’m afraid that at some point, I am going to be completely alone.

And that’s not counting my anxiety that already makes me afraid of so much and is a big part of the reason I am the way I am.

A lot of this fear has been holding me back over the last month, but I need to dig deep and find some courage to face it. If I don’t some of these fears will become self-fulfilling prophesies, and that’s the last thing I want.