I know what I want out of my life, but I am so full of excuses and self-sabotage that I keep myself from getting it. I always have. I’m not sure if it’s because deep down I don’t think I deserve it or simply because I’m scared of how my life will change.

Whichever the answer is, I need to get over it and embrace what I want, and fight for it. I can’t keep making decisions to make other people happy at the expense of my own mental health. I can’t stay with the status quo because it’s easy. I have to put in the effort.

I am 51 years old, I think it’s way beyond time to put myself first, don’t you?