I find myself pushing so hard to “get things done” most days. Since I am currently unemployed, I feel like I should be on top of everything and accomplishing big things. I set unrealistically high expectations for myself when it comes to everything, from reading to blogging to cleaning, and it seems impossible.

I think that I forget that not only am I dealing with a lot of emotional baggage over my job situation (or lack thereof), I am also dealing with my regular mental health issues, the decline of our democracy, chronic pain, menopause, eye strain, chronic sleep issues, and a decline in executive function. Add in the demands of an aging parent, fluctuating driving schedules, loss of masking ability, and frequent sensory overload; and it’s not surprising that I’m overwhelmed and burned out.

Sometimes I need to remind myself that it’s ok to stop for a little while. It’s ok to just step back and let everything go for an hour, or a day, or even a week if that’s what it takes. I feel as though I don’t deserve the break because I’m not earning my keep. But then I realize that’s internalized capitalism talking.

So this is my reminder to myself, that it’s ok to take a break. I don’t have to push, push, push everyday. I can slow down and just sit and breathe when needed.

It’s your reminder too, if you need it.