While I have come to terms with never reaching my mom’s expectations for me (I would have to completely change my personality plus go back in time and make different choices to do that), I still set some pretty major expectations for myself. And it’s hard.

One of my biggest expectations for myself are for habit development. Even knowing that the biggest reason I have difficulty forming habits is because of my neurodivergence (this discovery was a revelation), I still expect myself to be able to create new habits. I’m still working on this.

I also have incredibly high expectations when it comes to my reading. I frequently feel like I’m not reading enough or getting through DRCs fast enough. No one has told me I need to read more, I just set the expectations on myself. Reading is what I love, so I think I should be able to do more of it.

The challenge for me is to manage these expectations. I really need to cut myself some slack, especially on the reading part. As for the rest, maybe a sticker chart and reward system will help?