This is a question I ask myself a lot, especially lately. Where do we go from here? How do we find our way back to a democracy? Back to a country that values it’s people and treats everyone with respect and not hate. Yes, I know were were not perfect and the systemic racism and ableism that is built into society needs to be addressed, but I don’t even recognize what we are becoming.

But really, I don’t have the reach or ability to figure out where we go as a country. Right now I’m having a hard enough time trying to figure out where I go from here. There is so much in my life that needs some sort of action and I am frozen, unable to move in any direction because they are all intertwined.

For instance, what am I going to do when the blog comes up for renewal again? Will I be able to come up with the money to cover the fees? Or will I need to switch to a free blogging platform? And why isn’t the text color saving with my new header (in the theme page it’s correct, but once I look at my site it’s white)?

And will I be able to find work that I can perform without eyestrain? Because I won’t be able to correct the eyestrain until I’ve gotten a few paychecks. And if I can’t get my eyes fixed any time soon, how do I read the books on my shelves that aren’t available in audio at the library?

Then there’s the whole transportation issue, my overall health, and various other things circling in my mind right now.

I will eventually figure it all out. And hopefully the country will too.