Lately I feel like I have been begging for friends, unsuccessfully. I want to make connections with people and find some real, true friends, but I really struggle with it. I always have, even as a child. I didn’t realize it at the time, though, not until I was an adult and figured out that I didn’t carry any close friendships into adulthood. I have acquaintances, but no one that I am close to.

I’ve talked about looking for connections on the blog and on my social media, even going so far as to beg for pen pals. Considering I have very few blog readers or social media followers, I’m not sure what I think is going to happen. Maybe a miraculous rush of people wanting to be friends with me? I don’t know.

I feel kind of like a loser.