I was super excited about a lot of new beginnings and bright opportunities this year, both at home and at work, but unfortunately the universe has decided that these plans are just not meant to be. So now I’m trying to pivot and remain positive and optimistic, when I really feel like I’ve just been kicked in the teeth and pushed into a pool of quicksand that is dragging me under with no hope of escape.

I won’t be moving this year. I won’t be moving into new offices at work. I won’t be expanding my team. And I have absolutely no idea when I am ever going to be able to get a car. Instead it feels like everything is falling apart. And all of my momentum has just crashed me into an immovable brick wall, so now I’m just laying here bleeding and broken- metaphorically if not literally.

This isn’t the post I was originally going to write. I was just going to talk about putting moving on hold for a bit to focus on some other financial goals first. But then more and more stuff has gotten added onto it and I just feel completely overwhelmed and defeated, like I am just not good enough or I just don’t deserve to be successful and happy.